Tuesday, December 29, 2009
Sunday, December 20, 2009
Thursday, December 17, 2009
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
- NYC Ben Folds and a Piano (release tour of first solo album) with my sister
- Worcester with my college friends
- Lupos in RI with my sister
- Bank of America Pavilion in Boston on the Odd Man Out Tour (with Rufus Wainwright and Guster) with my ex James
- Orpheum in Boston with my ex Steve for the release of Way to Normal
- TD Bank North (ugh, opening for John Mayer) with the ex - Steve
- With the Boston Symphony Orchestra at the BSO with my friend Danielle (cause ex-steve f*ed up bigtime) - FRONT ROW CENTER, maybe 5 feet away - I have amazing video.
- With the Boston Symphony Orchestra at the BSO with random Craigslist girl- probably the BEST performance of his I've ever seen. TRIPLE encore
- With the Providence Performing Arts Symphony at PPAC with a bunch of co-workers
Alrighty, now that I've gotten that all out there and paid my respects, I feel loads better. Time-in.
Saturday, December 12, 2009
Friday, December 11, 2009
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
Monday, December 7, 2009
I think it's a really good thing that makes me just a bit more comfortable keeping this section totally public. And dont worry, if you're a random reader that I don't know that has somehow stumbled across my blog and feel this crazy connection, I'm totally open to giving you access to both sites so please let me know!! I'd really love people in similar situations to mine to be able to read and relate!
Disclaimer: If you're not on the "cool list", please dont be offended. Obviously there are some things everyone prefers to keep a bit more personal for a variety of reasons :)
DIFO FRIENDS: I don't know most of your emails to invite you, so somehow get those to me and I'll set you up!
Sunday, December 6, 2009
Friday, December 4, 2009
Thursday, December 3, 2009
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
Sunday, November 22, 2009
I've had the pleasure of fostering this little spitfire since this past February and am honestly, now that it's hitting, a bit heartbroken at the idea of her going. The sweetie has a bit of cage aggression (due to a rough life) but is absolutely amazing outside of her cage and has made so much progress since being with me. I just want to run home and hug her right now!
This is what it's all about. I'm so happy for her. Just gotta keep my fingers crossed that everything goes as planned. She should be in her forever home Wednesday. What an amazing Thanksgiving surprise.
Saturday, November 21, 2009
What sacrifices will you make? I'm ok being less indulgent in social situations. That's a biggie for me. I feel like if I'm paying for food I need to get something really indulgent and that shouldn't be the case. I should be able to (sometimes, not necessarily all the time) go out to dinner and not get pasta.
What sacrifices won't you make? This is horrible, but I'm not ready to give up social drinking entirely right now. I'm really trying to reach out and make friends and that's a common method. I definitely am willing to nix the booze some nights and go for some Diet Coke instead, but not all nights. I want to be able to cut loose like that when I feel like it, which I guess would be part of my 90% compliance so it should be OK. That's the big one that I feel like will become more of an issue the closer I get to my goals. It's not like I go out a lot, but I do tend to have half a dozen drinks or so and some junk food when I do. I also need to be able to give into my cravings at least some of the time, but again, 90/10.
How will you feel when you're a fit female? This will mean the world to me. It's so frustrating knowing I had it. To know I finally have it again will be a huge accomplishment and RELIEF. I will be confident in my body again and happy with it and love it. Not that I shouldn't do that now anyways, but man, I remember that shock the last time I tried in bikini's and they fit and looked good. I want it. I want it bad.
What makes this a must this time? What are the repercussions of failure? Well, short term, I want to be able to go to the beach and feel great and have awesome pictures and not be worried about what I look like. (I probably don't have time to get quite there, but I'll be a ton closer). The repercussions of that are going to be not enjoying my trip or pictures or adventures. Long term repercussions, well I've kind of talked about them. I don't want to yo-yo anymore. I don't want to be a bad example. I don't want to do this again and again. I want to be stable. I will not waste this energy and stress and unhappiness anymore.
Mission Statement I think this one is going to get it's own post, but I'd love to sum up with two that really stick with me. "Suck it up princess" and "food will not control my mood."
Thursday, November 19, 2009
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
So this year I decided to go for some non-traditional turkey day options that I had been waiting to try. The first was a quinoa broccoli fritatta from Oxygen Magazine and the second was a roasted chickpea recipe from Clean Eating Magazine. Both turned out surprisingly well! Here's the fritatta:
I had been aching to make this for a while and this was a perfect opportunity. It was also my first fritatta! So both exciting. I burned the bottom a little (probably when it was on the stove, not in the broiler) but overall success! It was OK at dinner cause it was a little cold, but was amazing when I reheated it. So good! I can definitely see adding more veggies and egg and having it as a regular breakfast. And it was really easy to make!
Next, were the roasted chickpeas. Again, super easy to make, pretty cheap, nutritious and they turned out quite well! I can definitely see making them as a regular snack food. Here they are:
And the final results of Practice Thanksgiving? An awesome, colorful plate of food! And it was a pretty successful meal for me as well. I was able to savor my meal, not totally stuff myself and enjoy dessert in much more moderation than I'm used to! Now if I can just conquer the crescent rolls in two weeks at home!
Saturday, November 14, 2009
Can squats cure cancer? An amazing compilation of Rippetoe quotes.
Most Legit Workout Workout Vid Ever. I want to marry these guys.
And one I was introduced to last night. German Forklift Safety:
Poke, Sniff and Lick: a lovely production by a coworker's kids (sorry, can't imbed this one!). Really funny actually. I think I would have had tons of fun with these guys :)
My heroes from The Principal's Office on Dirty Dancing.
Marker Face, again from the Principal's Office. Cause who didn't have a kid like this in their school?
And finally... my favorite clip from The Soup discussing our President's sexual habits that made me nearly piss my pants. MUST SEE.
Hope you Enjoyed!!!! Stay tuned for part 2 as I come across more funnies.
- Bridget Jones 1 and 2
- Twilight Series
- Joy Luck Club
- Memoirs of a Geisha
- The Notebook
- The Princess Bride
- In Her Shoes
- The Time Traveler's Wife
- Persuasion- Jane Austen (and the rest that I haven't read)
- Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants
- Maximum Strength- Eric Cressey
- Muscle Revolution/ Huge in a Hurry- Chad Waterbury
- Under the Bar - Dave Tate
- Raising the Bar -Tate
- Starting Strength - Mark Ripptoe
- reread Nutrient Timing
- The Female Body Breakthrough
- Rock, Iron, Steel
- Bigger, Faster, Stronger
- Good Calories, Bad Calories
- Built for Show- Nate Green
- Scrawny to Brawny - John Berardi
- Killing Mr Griffin
- Forever- Judy Blume
- A Hero Ain't Nothing but a Sand
- Boy - Roald Dahl (pretty sure that's a re-read)
- Anything Dean Koontz
- Finish up my Clive Cusslers
- Something Bill Bryson
- The Great Bridge
- The Poisonwood Bible
- Running with Scissors
- Girl with the Pearl Earing
Friday, November 13, 2009
Let's look at TV to start with. We have lovely commercials such as those put out by the Corn Refiner's Association telling us that HFCS is fine and nothing to worry about. After that, General Mills tried to convince us with a big white check that cinnamon toast crunch and froot loops were healthy choices, with tons of whole grains and fiber and the ability to increase concentration and help your heart. And my new FAVORITE commericals by far, are the Nutella commericals, like this one I regularly see on TV praising the health benefits of the hazelnut spread and this one I've only had the joy of youtubing:
Oh and you can't forget... hagen daaz's newest ice cream invention that only have 5 ingredients!!! Since when did 3/5 of your ingredients being crap become something to brag about? Oh wait, it's pure, natural crap. That's right.
And finally, I can't stop without a wonderful recount of my favorite bastardization of nutrition of all time... David Zinczenko, Editor in Chief of Men's Health Magazine and author of "Eat This, Not That!", and in particular, his season 7 appearence on the Biggest Loser. During this particular challenge, the teams had to identify which meal option was HEALTHIER. Not least fat. Not least calories. Not most balanced. Not most nurtritaional. They were specifically told (and this was repeated) to chooise the healthier option. One round was A) Grilled chicken burrito with the works (like, ohhhhh, a dollop of guacamole), I believe prepared with brown rice too, or B) 18 lite beers. The correction option was A, but they were told that if it was 17 BEERS, that would have been the healthier option. Excuse me?!?!?!?!?!?!?!!? Are you really telling me that a lovely burrito with some healthy fats, decent carbs and lean protein that would keep me satisfied for hours and has some excellent nurtrients is worse than drinking 17 beers? I think it took a week to pick my jaw up off the ground. Fucking Zinczenko. And people really honest to god trust him and think his POS books are a good source of information. Ugh.
So does it really surprise me that people are clueless? It shouldn't but the stuff that comes out of people's mouths... Recently, I had two amazing overhears from my cube. The first was from a friend of mine, a relatively informed one (compared to the rest of the population) who is actually trying to loose weight. I guess he had recently visited the golden arches and was looking up some calorie counts, when he exclaimed in shock about the ~1000 calorie count of a large shake and how he could not believe that. WTF did you expect????? You're basically having 4 or 5 bowls of extra processed, extra sugary ice cream mixed with lord knows what kind of syrupy flavoring. How is that a surprise? Since when does LARGE MILK SHAKE from McDONALD's not imply caloriefest 2009? Not nearly as bad, and maybe a bit more understandable, was the shock of finding out a Starbucks scone was about 500calories. It's not breakfast; it's a freaking pastry!!! Just because it's not creamy doesn't mean it isn't filled with loads of sugar and butter. But they again were horrified at the calorie count. Really people.... really?
Does it surprise me that the same friends talk about "taking protein" as a supplement? You don't say you're taking chicken. A macro is not a supplement buddy. A whole nother tangent I could go off on....
But back to the point. We're fucked. If this is what somewhat intelligent, informed people who are actually trying to change their bodies think, what does the average Joe think and how the heck are we supposed to begin tackling this issue?
I know I can laugh at the ridiculousness of the situation, but truly, it's quite terrifying.
Thursday, November 12, 2009
- I don't like the way I look and similarly,
- I loved looking like an athlete.
- I want to fit back into my clothes (and really dont want to have to buy new ones!).
- I want that confidence back.
- I miss being able to shop so easily (minus the fact that my hamstrings and arms/back dont fit into stuff lol).
- I hate feeling out of shape.
- I want to be able to enjoy active activities.
- I want to be confident and comfortable to do anything anytime, like random skinny dipping!
- I miss enjoying the beach.
- Pullups. Nough said.
- I'm sick of being "that girl" eternally dieting/yo-yoing.
- I really love the idea of clean eating and do enjoy it.
- Kind of into the future, but I want to be a good example for my daughter, if I should have one. I'm terrified of the idea of my child growing up feeling the way I did at times, and I don't want to be anything but a positive influence and role model. That one really has been resonating with me lately.
- I don't want any reservations dating, and....
- I certainly dont want any reservations sexually because of my body.
- I want to just be able to throw simple things on without worrying- like tank tops and jeans
- I want to look like I know all that I know.
- I cant lie- I want to be looked at again. It's nice being checked out.
- I want to get all this under control now while I have freedom and flexibility and my youth and fewer commitments.
- I want to give away my fat clothes for real this time so I can finally have some room in my closet!
- Cellulite. When the fuck did that come back on my legs? So not cool.
- I worry a bit about my health. I'm not huge, but I'm a bit unhealthily overweight at this point if I'm realistic.
- Oh and that ever so poingnant inspiration.... revenge hottness. I want that man to ache when he sees me.
Veggies galore, here I come. Ready to attack.
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
Monday, November 9, 2009
Monday, November 2, 2009
Friday, October 30, 2009
What I didn't know was that I was actually going to be reminded of how totally doable this can be, and better yet, get a nice little kick in the ass.
It was fine!!! And I had fun. I forgot how it really can be OK to go out with friends and NOT drink even if they are. And it's not always worth it. Yeah, a few beers would have been really relaxing and I would have been a bit looser and all that good stuff, but I wouldn't feel as good about my choices tomorrow morning as I will instead. The marginal benefits of a beer or two certainly would not have outweighed all of the cons. SO...No beers. No shitty apps. And I was able to go home, relax, do a little workout and I know I'll feel great in the morning and that I'm one small step closer to my goals, both mentally and physically.
It's not just about loosing. It's easy to have a short term excuse (i.e. I'm on a diet) to fall back on when making these choices. But what about maintainence? Or what about when I'm trying to put on muscle withouth packing on the pounds? I'm going to be faced with these choices all the time, and a big and very important goal of mine is to be able to SAY NO to those things that control me and still be able to have fun. So in the long term, I really need to gain this skill of balance, self control and making the better choice sometime, even if it isn't the most fun. Don't give up what you want most for what you want now, right?
Now for the kick in the ass. I know I should have more compassion... BUTTTTT, when you're sitting there drinking the booze and eating the shitty apps, which are probably even worse for you than the beers, you just can't lecture me about how my diet coke is bad for me while trying to lose weight. A) Forest through the trees anyone? B) I've researched the crappy studies, which are totally inconclusive imo. C) Do you really think the news reports accurately on nutritional studies anyways?
I know the hype is enticing and it feels good to spread the word about what your crappy overpriced trainer told you, but nooooo. Just no. You're really not helping yourself by focusing on stuff like that. So go and stress about avoiding your diet coke and consume lord knows what instead. I'm going to enjoy mine and savor the motivational kick in the ass you just gave me to not be another Bob.
Overall, a good night. Next step, not feeling guilty over a little planned fun tomorrow. That's going to be the real test. Balance.